We’re moving! By “we” I mean the boyfriend, Brett, and I. While I realize that some of you may not approve of this, I am willing to accept that. Don’t get me wrong. Marriage has been put on the table as an option. Don’t think I haven’t thought about it. It’s just mostly the cost that makes us want to wait. We’d rather have been together longer and have more money before we take on that endeavor. Just know that it WILL happen. Just not right now. And yeah, my parents (especially dad) are very unhappy with pretty much everything I do now, so I get enough criticism from the Riggs Camp.

I’ve been living at le Boyfriend’s for about a month, and now we’re setting out on our own. The awesome news is, we’re moving into the apartment right next to his mom’s. This way we have our own place, but if we need anything or feel unsafe, we have people that we trust right next door. She’s already been a huge help. Tomorrow the electricity and gas are being turned on, and we’re going in to do some cleaning, since it’s been unoccupied for a few months. We’re moving all of the furniture in this weekend, after we buy new locks and door handles (as a precaution). The apartment is positively huge. It’s a 2 bedroom with 1 bathroom and a huge living room connected to the kitchen. Tiny backyard, but we don’t really care. It’s only missing a microwave, proper air conditioning and a fridge. But that’s okay, because we’re bringing our own fridge (courtesy of Brett’s grandma and her extra one) and a small air conditioner that will work perfectly for the bedroom. That will also keep the bills low, which we’re happy about. The apartment is in great condition, and it doesn’t smell funky or anything. We’ll always be safe because we have family right next door. I’m very excited.

The other news is that I’m now working 2 jobs in addition to going to school. I know, it sounds like a lot but it really isn’t. I’m only part-time this semester, and next semester I’ll be going full-time, but it will be online so I can be more flexible at work. I’ll also be working afternoons as a tutor at Success in Reading and Math and working graveyard shifts at Jack in the Box. The latter isn’t actually a sure thing, but I had an interview today and I was told that it “wasn’t a sure thing that I’d be hired, but I most likely would be because I have a great attitude and seem perfect for a customer service position there.” I’ve been told that this is a huge deal, because she kept complimenting me and she usually doesn’t do that. If that doesn’t work out, it’ll be another fast food job for now. I don’t really mind. It helps pay the bills while I’m at COS. Financial Aid will help out a little too. I don’t think I qualify for much, even now.

So basically, we’re going to be out on our own, doing our own thing. Once we get moved in, the main priority will be acquiring furniture. As of right now, we only have the fridge, some bedroom furniture, 2 computers and game systems, a GIANT tv, and a coffee table. For now that will totally work, and we’ll just take it from there. Within a few weeks I’ll probably turn on a 2nd phone, so expect a message about that. For now, that’s what’s going on over here. It’s pretty busy!

I can’t decide if I want to start pasting it here or not.

I think I probably will. lol

-I’m not going to COS anymore (except for choir).

-I’m going to enroll at Milan Cosmetology School

-I’m going to actually be working.

-I’m hopefully going to also walk dogs for some extra cash. Want me to walk yours? Totally will.

-I’m moving in with le boyfrenn.

That’s about it. lol

Lies are all of a sudden rumors, and then rumors destroy lives when they take over innocent kids. Then there are the ones that gain the tiniest bit of freedom when they become adults, and waste it doing drugs and living off of tax dollars. It’s sad to envision the futures of many of my classmates. I think this is definitely a skewed sample, given that this IS community college, and in a small town at that.

But you know what? I will be part of the 7% that makes something of themselves after COS. I won’t get married and have kids before I can legally have a glass of wine, and I won’t ditch class to get high. There’s a reason that people don’t make it past this far in their education. Granted, college isn’t meant for everyone, but in this day and age, degrees are important in pretty much every field except for fast food. In 10 years I will probably be getting served my meals by some of these people that think they’re cool now. And I’ll be the cool one, in my little red Audi. lol

It’s just comforting to know sometimes that these people, who are so quick to judge and accuse, will never amount to anything. And it’s also nice to know that five years from now, I won’t have to think about them at all, but they’ll remember me, because my name will be famous. Maybe. I can dream, right?

Allie Without Allen

Current mood:lonely

Allen Jay’s death was the worst event in my life, but how cool that he brought so many people closer to the Lord. It was like Allen, to go out in style. It’s amazing, people tell me that i”m the strongest person they know! Me! Are they crazy or what? And people are always telling me that I’m dealing with it so well, and that I’m doing so well. But here’s the problem. That’s all good and well during the school year, when I have things to do, classes to go to, homework to do. What happens during summer when i’m all alone?

We spent all of last summer together. Summer school, the Waterpark, and just hanging out at home. This summer…well, I guess i’ll find something to do. It’s weird. I go places alone now, do things alone that we always did as a couple. People tell me that it’s odd to see me walking by myself, and it feels weird.

Couple activities have turned into single activities, and i find myself searching for activities to keep myself busy. We spent so much time together! I never realized how much time i spent with him until I couldn’t anymore.

All i can say is, feel lucky if you have that special someone who makes life worthwhile. Because at any moment that person can be taken away from you. God knew what he was doing, and Allen was ready. The only problem is, I wasn’t ready to say goodbye yet!

How funny that almost 3 years later everything is so different, and I’ve found the one person that makes me as happy as he did.

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Laughter is not the best medicine. People that say that are lying. Love is the best medicine. It really is. Last night I may have been crying like a baby in the hospital bed, but you know what? My knight in shining armor was right there next to me, holding my hand and telling me that he was sorry I was hurting. And let me tell you, true love is when a guy will sit next to your bedside for 6 hours holding your hand when he is bored out of his mind, freezing, worried and exhausted.

I am so truly blessed to have the people in my life that I do. Yes, boyfriend is one of them. But is he the only one? Of course not. Even the friends that I don’t get to talk to as often as I like–when I do see them, they light up my world. I’m really sorry. Usually I’ve got the sarcastic and pessimistic humorous things to whine about, but lately I’ve been so mushy. It probably is seriously annoying.

Anyway, I just basically wanted to brag about how lucky I am

Also, don’t canonize the boy for being a saint. He made fun of me so hard when I freaked out about the IV needle.

Little jerk.

Here’s to making good choices, kids.

Toby <3

I am a dirty, dirty cheater. That’s right.